The Beginning

Where do I even being? What a unbelievable road we have been on for the last 3 years. I say "unbelievable" because if you told me 5 years ago that I would STILL be figuring out God's plan for my future I wouldn't believe you! Well, nonetheless, here we are. I really thought (key words) that God would have us in some remote, isolated village in a beautiful Spanish-speaking country by now. Here was MY plan: gratuate from NGU, get married, go to seminary, then go to mission field. Isn't that easy and so neatly packaged? Well, friend, our Father hasn't worked like that. I had made those cookie-cutter plans and really didn't consult Him once. So, He took me to Mexico for a summer...by myself.
It wasn't a "bad" trip by any means, but God humbled me in ways I've never known. I have never been so homesick. I cried every day. I hardly shared my faith and never saw any one meet the same Savior that I know. (I know, I know...it's about planting seeds, being obedient, etc. but it's still hard.) After Mexico, my precious plans weren't looking so rosey. I thought, "I never want to leave my Momma again." So, for 3 years I ignored a very clear call to missions and basically ignored my Savior.
About a year ago, God started rocking my boat. (Sorry for all of the coloquial & cliche sayings! I just can't help myself!) I could no longer deny my hypocritical actions behind closed doors. Yeah, I looked and acted the part of Mrs. I've-Got-It-All-Together-and-Have-a-Great-Relationship-with-God attitude, but in my heart, it was still "all about Betsy." God convicted me about not being in His Word and loving & serving Him with my entire heart (rather than just putting Him on the to-do list of my heart).
Since then, He's been doing a lot...and I am SO thankful. He's taught me that He will take care of me. Through a series of small steps, He's finally brought Scott & I both to the place where we can say, "okay God. Whatever You want. Where ever You want us to go...we'll go." I still struggle with fear on occassion. My main fear is that life will be hard. Isn't that SAD!?! (By the way, as someone new to blogging...to see this in writing is really weird & scary.) But, God's teaching me that as long as we are being obedient, He will be our comfort. Not only is "home where the heart is" but my Home is where my Jesus is! And if He takes us to the remotest parts of Ecuador and I can't see, muchless WEAR, the latest fashions, then we'll still be okay AND we just might ENJOY it!?! I'm so glad that God is our comforter and our Home and that no matter where He takes us (even if it's keeping us here in good ol' South Carolina) that we will be with Him.
Currently, we're in the process of getting our house ready and putting it on the market. Then, we feel like God's (finally) telling us to go to seminary. YAY! Only God knows what is to follow in the next year or so. We hope to do the 2 plus 2 program at Southeaster which is 2 years at seminary and 2 years on the field, but as mentioned in great detail above...God's precious plan is what we're following now. Only God knows where Home will be.
Thanks for listening.
BPB